I really am lost on why all these feelings are coming back, I really do hope its do to the lack of sleep, hunger and maybe Its almost that time of the month and I just need something to ansty over, I sure hope those are the reasons

so anyway, my mom had asked me if I saw one of my guy friends, if I knew what he was up do or heared from him, I was like nope, la la la

and I really have been fine for years, it hasnt bugged me I havent even though about it,

then that night I had a dream, I was sitting at a table and I saw him and I was like hey its him, I waved and I didnt think he noticed, but he did and he came over and said hi, then later I dreamed we were out late I think we were going to buy cds, or something and it was like almost midnight and he was like do you need to call your parnets to let them know your out late, then I was over at his place, and he had 2 other roomates and he didnt trust them, and I didnt ask him about his g/f and he didnt tell me, his room was messy, then he picked up something and we left, he live on the 2nd story, and when we left there were stairs going down white ones. I seem to remember he was kinda out of character than usual a little bit of hyper and not so tired

then tonight I just for some crazy random reasons just started to think of old times, hanging out, all sorts of random stuff, then tears

poems really do help you feel better I dont know what it is, must go eat some food

EDITED: I woke up this morning and I was fine, that stuff doesnt even bother me anymore it hasnt bother me for years, so why it bother me last night, well I'll file it under I need more sleep